Wednesday, July 4, 2012

The Empty Chair

In just a few hours our house will be full of friends. We are expecting about 30 today, not bad for a quick throw-together kind of 4th of July party. We'll have burgers, and brats, and apple pie, and nachos and play in the pool, listen to music, and of course play some cards. Chairs will be littered with colorful beach towels, the dogs will be in all of their glory running around enjoying all of the people (and searching endlessly for scraps that have be dropped or plates of food that were haphazardly left at nose level...)

I know it will be fun, but again today I find my heart so heavy. Yesterday was the same. I woke up thinking about my Dad, and how it was just 6 months ago that he fell and broke his hip. That was January 3rd...on January 4th we were still visiting him in the hospital...on the 5th he went in for his surgery and never came out.  I'm not sure why it's hitting me so hard these last two days. Maybe it's the 6 month milestone? Who knows.  All I know is that I miss him terribly.  I've been thinking of him SO much...he loved days like today. He should be here, in his "regular" spot, playing cards, and whipping up on everyone.
Instead, there will be an empty chair.

I hope they play cards in heaven.


Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. my mama passed 12 years ago and I still miss her every day. It gets easier though and you are able to smile and remember the good times more and the heartache less. really it will happen. try to put good thoughts in place of the hurt as the days go by. your dad would want you to be happy even though it is work to do it. hugs to you.

Anonymous said...

I am the same today, sad. There is not a day that goes by where I don't think of him. I miss him everyday. I miss his voice the most. "My princess". And the smell of kissing him right after he shaved. I know he's here with us in spirit, looking down and happy that we're with friends today. Knowing he isn't in pain anymore and that he's in heaven with his brothers and other family, I know he is happy. I love him so much and miss everything about him. Happy 4th grandpa, wish you were here.

Sam said...

It's been nearly ten years since my dad passed, and I have days where his loss is very painful still. Holidays are hard - sending you hugs. I'll be willing to bet there is an awesome card game going on right now.


Curt Rogers said...

I'm thinking of you, Sue. You have such a big heart. You dad will be there in spirit.