Simple as that...it takes time. I've got to remind myself of that, and more importantly, I've got to remember to give myself time. I did just that yesterday. I made a little time for myself. I took the evening and made it my own. I took my camera down to the beach and snapped a few pictures. 
I got there just after the sun had set - bad timing on my part, but I was still able to get a few pretty shots. I was ok with that. After all, it wasn't about taking a perfect picture, it was simply about being out, by myself, doing something I enjoy doing. 
Once it got dark, I sat in my car, and listened to music. Calm, mellow music. A little of this, a little of that. I listened to The Civil Wars , some Mumford and Sons and even some Chopin.
I also listened to this...
Danny Boy was my Dad's favorite song...I listened to this about 15 times in a row last night... This song brought the tears. I sat and cried until there were no more tears. (Thank goodness it was dark!) It was cathartic... Of course I looked like a swollen mess when I was finally done, but I did feel a bit better. Maybe I was just exhausted, I'm not sure.
Gosh, I miss my Dad so much. It's been 6 weeks and one day that he's been gone. Only 43 days, and it seems like forever.
I also listened to this...
Danny Boy was my Dad's favorite song...I listened to this about 15 times in a row last night... This song brought the tears. I sat and cried until there were no more tears. (Thank goodness it was dark!) It was cathartic... Of course I looked like a swollen mess when I was finally done, but I did feel a bit better. Maybe I was just exhausted, I'm not sure.
Gosh, I miss my Dad so much. It's been 6 weeks and one day that he's been gone. Only 43 days, and it seems like forever.
5 comments:
Sending you hugs. The pictures are really beautiful!
Sam
Your father was a gentle soul and you have learned so much from him. Hang in there my friend!
Sue,
Thank you for sharing such a personal moment with us. You did a good thing by making time for yourself, being alone with your thoughts, your eyes open to the majesty of the world, the sights and sounds, the music of life. My heart breaks for your grief but I am so happy for you and the journey you're on, your willingness to face it and begin.
Bless you, sweet Sue.
(Also, I just have to say, that third picture down is REMARKABLE! It took my breath away. You are blessed to live in such a beautiful place! Take solace in your setting.)
All my best,
Curt
Oh Sue... it has been too long since we visited - am so sorry to hear about your Dad. I lost my Dad over 10 years ago and I still miss him so much; I understand the grief you are coping with. It was very healing of you to take some gorgeous photos - taking time to be quiet with your thoughts and feelings is hard, but believe me, helps to work through the pain. We all send you tons of hugs xoxoxo
Love,
Miche and the girls and Bill
Weird how when you first lose a loved one, it seems like FOREVER... but after years and years.. it feels like just yesterday!
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